Writing and Thinking

It has really been a while. My lack of articulation has become quite a habit these days. The penning and mental organisation of thoughts absent. Good or bad? I have lost sight of my old priniples, beliefs and way of living. So much has changed in the period unrecorded. I lived my days without thinking about who i am, what i am, why i am, and everything else. A kaleidoscopic jumble of incoherent, incongrous thought plus experience. Do i really want to go on like this? I cannot even express myself properly, nor understand fully what i am trying to express. I think, a change is most apt. I make my decision.

Aside from the lack of mental fortitude to sustain my thoughts, the past 6 months have been surprisingly eventful and life changing, entailing an overarching effect on the rest of my life. 3 big achievements: Officer, Scholar, Doctor. It really ain't too shabby. And i realize, if the young Michael ever had a glimpse of such a future present, i reckon He'd be over the moon. For now, the next 12 years of my life is pretty much charted and planned. If nothing goes wrong, it might be quite a predictable journey. Is this really what i want?

Lastly, if there is anything significant about the past 6 months, and even the period before that, it is that I have had trouble coping with my emotions. In particular, the emotions to do with love, a romantic sort.

Now, at least i have got my some issues penned. That would be quite a mouthful to think and write about, at least for the next few weeks i guess.

Magic Moments

Life
endless flow of
thought and experience
love and lust
work and play

-interupt-
something special surfaces
all boudaries fade
time
energy
you transcend these

momentarily
everything seems vivider than yesterday
and clearer than today
you never felt so alive.

Every detail, every object, every character, every event of that experience
Etched beautifully in memory.
More than a motion picture
accompanied by subtle nuance
of reminiscent emotion.
Its something more

Replay, Relive, Remember.
Magic Moments